missing him...

i hate seeing that happy couple walking down the street holding hands merrily making googly eyes.. and not in a way that i wish they werent together, but in a jealous way. he lives 12 hours away. sucks.. but i love this boy with every inch of my hopelessly romantic heart. i do wonder how things will go when i leave for college.. while the distance wont change.. my surroundings will. i dunno i just love him sooo much.. and i hate that i cant kiss my boyfriend or hug him whenever i want.. i hate that im not there to make him soup when hes sick.. i hate that im not there to cuddle up with him and unwide after a long day. i dont know how long a relationship can last like this.. im willing to wait it out and see fer sure... i know with out a doubt that i can live knowing he isnt mine. so giving him up isnt an option what-so-ever. but like.. i need him.. a boyfriend is a shuge part of a support system.. i feel like i have a missing piece.. and its in my eye sight.. i just cant grasp it long enough to put it in place.but i wonder how long until the distance becomes a bigger obstacle... right now were are living our lives, knowing we have each other in our corners.. but when will that stop being enough??