everyone has that one that either they cant let go or always stays with you right??? Well i know i do. Im 100% in love with my current boyfriend. Hes a big part of my life. I've finally gotten to the point in my life where im over Paul. i dont think about him, wonder what hes doing, ache to be near him when we hang out.. none of that anymore... and let me tell you.. it was bad.
but im over that.. like i can seriusly hang out with him and JUST think of him as paul my friend... not paul the ex that i never should have let go. He means alot to me in the sense that i only want the best for him and i want him to be as happy as his little hearts desires. And i thought he was getting there... or pretty close anyway. Hes with this girl Katrina.. which is who i blogged about a while ago, and from what i saw or heard they were pretty serious and happy. Well i've been talking to him alot lately, and maybe its just concerns about her moving away for college ( even though shes only going abot 2 hours away) but he seems uncertain about the relationship... and hes been hitting on me alot lately. Its alittle annoying, cuz im done. Im over him. And as much as i know that it still entertains me that he flirts with me. I hate it tho. I really like his girlfriend. She may even be too good for him... but none the less, shes a good person. And obviously i LOVE my boyfriend. i dont know if its me.. but even my moms commented on it. I dunno its super confusing. And like im not blogging because its tempting.. im blogging because its just fustrating. i dont want to insult him and be like back the hell up, cuz hes still me friend. but i dont want him to think its ok... cuz i know its now. Im just alittle stuck. But i know that i'll figure it out... i always do!!!!
but im over that.. like i can seriusly hang out with him and JUST think of him as paul my friend... not paul the ex that i never should have let go. He means alot to me in the sense that i only want the best for him and i want him to be as happy as his little hearts desires. And i thought he was getting there... or pretty close anyway. Hes with this girl Katrina.. which is who i blogged about a while ago, and from what i saw or heard they were pretty serious and happy. Well i've been talking to him alot lately, and maybe its just concerns about her moving away for college ( even though shes only going abot 2 hours away) but he seems uncertain about the relationship... and hes been hitting on me alot lately. Its alittle annoying, cuz im done. Im over him. And as much as i know that it still entertains me that he flirts with me. I hate it tho. I really like his girlfriend. She may even be too good for him... but none the less, shes a good person. And obviously i LOVE my boyfriend. i dont know if its me.. but even my moms commented on it. I dunno its super confusing. And like im not blogging because its tempting.. im blogging because its just fustrating. i dont want to insult him and be like back the hell up, cuz hes still me friend. but i dont want him to think its ok... cuz i know its now. Im just alittle stuck. But i know that i'll figure it out... i always do!!!!
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